Lost Ya. Got Ya! Lost Ya Again...

DL starts back to work next week. I got the feeling like he's trying to distance himself. This is either because (a) SH suspects too much, or (b) easing up to better handle upon returning to work. He wouldn't return my texts. We barely spoke over the phone. And this was a matter of 4 DAYS.

(I know. I'm a basket case.)

I thought I'd be stronger than this. Especially since H has been with me night and day for the past week and a half. And I've enjoyed his company. Can you believe, this is the longest we've been together, under the same roof, EVER. Since we've been married. Engaged. Dating. We haven't gone more than 1 week before having to sleep apart again. And over this past fortnight, it feels like we're married enough that he isn't clinging to me at every moment. I like it. I can live like this.

And I have the opportunity to SMS people without H getting annoyed, so naturally, I can message DL now and again. but with our busy weekends and his appointments before returning to work, and my crazy work schedule, we haven't been able to connect.

And just as I was feeling low this morning, like I was losing him...
DL asks me to call him after a meeting with his new managers (which went very well).

I gush about a new position that's still on the table (I've been looking for a new job), the one I really liked, and he says 'I thought your favourite position was with your face buried in the couch with me behind you'... :P ooooh, I haven't lost you, have I? ;-)

It's amazing, how a few slight words can brighten my whole day. He wants me. He misses me. He wants me to call him every morning next week to make sure he's not late for work. He even suggested sleeping over (that would turn his 15 minute drive into a 1 hour drive - not physically possible for a man who sleeps like a koala).

Will it be easier to be faithful after his return to full time work? Is this going to be as emotionally difficult as it was for me this morning? What do you think?